Monday, August 02, 2010

Change



Two weeks from today, summer vacation will be over.

School will start and my "slow and easy" days will be filled with busy-ness.

I'm looking forward to it.

And I'm not.

Yesterday was a beautiful day in my neighborhood as a cool-front came in and gave us a tease of the fall days to come.

I'm not rushing, I love summer with its high heat and pedicured toes. But I love fall too and it was nice to have a taste of the goodness to come. A reminder that seasons change...in nature, and in life.

I have several "seasonal" changes happening right now that are good, but it's still change. 

As I do with all changes, I fight between wanting to excitedly throw my hands in the air, roller coaster style, and burying my head in the sand wondering what I've done.

I fight fear and I revel in the newness. Although not usually at the same time.

Ambivalence may be the worst part of change and is often what gets me trouble.

I was out with a couple of girlfriends a couple weeks ago and we were talking about things in our lives. We aren't all dealing with the same thing, but how we cope is eerily similar...we often fight for what we want, and in the process forfeit what we desire.

I am praying that this year, in the growing-pains that come with new seasons, I can keep my sight on what I truly desire. Instead of allowing fear or inconvenience to sway me from the good that comes from change.

Its gonna be an awesome year...

11 comments:

His Girl said...

I am praying that this year, in the growing-pains that come with new seasons, I can keep my sight on what I truly desire. Instead of allowing fear or inconvenience to sway me from the good that comes from change."

gee... you're pretty deep for this early in the morning.

Making this my prayer too. well said.

Lindsay said...

I love change and fear it as well! I love having a "new start" but get anxious for it at the same time! I spent this weekend planning out the first 10 weeks of preschool for Sammy.. I can't believe we are this point.. but we totally are!

Gretchen said...

You are such a gifted writer, Kellie. Your words universally soothe & challenge at the same time. Meanwhile, I'm sitting about 2500 miles away, drinking coffee from my Raleigh-Durham mug, & holding you close to my heart.

stephanie j. said...

Change here, too -- excited and not excited as well -- Ingrid is going to be in public school for first grade. Gasp. I'm terrified about it. She's excited. Dad's excited. Ilsa's excited. I'm not. I'll be homeschooling Ilsa, though. We are hoping to bring Ingrid back home next year. We're chalking this one up as experience. I haven't even figured out when I'll be starting Ilsa's HS schedule yet -- probably when Ingrid goes back -- 6 weeks or so? I don't know. I'm too relaxed right now to figure it out :)!

Carpool Queen said...

This is why we're friends. You delightfully write what I can't articulate.

mer@lifeat7000feet said...

Good stuff here, Kellie. Good stuff.

New Every Morning said...

I'm SO with you! Except that our changes have already happened: School started a week ago.

I still have mixed feelings. Love the structure and schedule. Hate having to be so self-disciplined. You know, lesson plans n' all. :)

Amber said...

Exactly what I needed to hear at this exact minute.
Love how God orchestrates that.

Sandy said...

I think this is a gift God gives to us as women... Excited about change, yet cautious too.

Michele said...

What sweet, sweet and very TRUE words. . . thank you!

"Delight yourself in the LORD, and He will give you the desires of your heart."

Jolanthe said...

Amen. :)