Monday, August 02, 2010
Two weeks from today, summer vacation will be over.
School will start and my "slow and easy" days will be filled with busy-ness.
I'm looking forward to it.
And I'm not.
Yesterday was a beautiful day in my neighborhood as a cool-front came in and gave us a tease of the fall days to come.
I'm not rushing, I love summer with its high heat and pedicured toes. But I love fall too and it was nice to have a taste of the goodness to come. A reminder that seasons change...in nature, and in life.
I have several "seasonal" changes happening right now that are good, but it's still change.
As I do with all changes, I fight between wanting to excitedly throw my hands in the air, roller coaster style, and burying my head in the sand wondering what I've done.
I fight fear and I revel in the newness. Although not usually at the same time.
Ambivalence may be the worst part of change and is often what gets me trouble.
I was out with a couple of girlfriends a couple weeks ago and we were talking about things in our lives. We aren't all dealing with the same thing, but how we cope is eerily similar...we often fight for what we want, and in the process forfeit what we desire.
I am praying that this year, in the growing-pains that come with new seasons, I can keep my sight on what I truly desire. Instead of allowing fear or inconvenience to sway me from the good that comes from change.
Its gonna be an awesome year...