I've only had half a cup of coffee this morning. So I can't be held responsible for the rest of this post.
Wednesday, April 15, 2009
I am enjoying this spring break. Sleeping in. Cleaning up. Working out. Blogging. Calling friends. Lunching with friends. Baking. Sewing. Writing. Baking some more...
Today I am going to work on a project. I've been asked to make an apron for a charity auction.
Cannot wait to get to that sewing room.
These are all things I would do on a daily basis, BHS (Before Home Schooling). I've missed all those things.
Homeschooling this year has been an amazing ride. But, its also been very difficult.
Yesterday afternoon, a mom I recently met, came over. She is about to start homeschooling her children next year and wanted to look over some of my curriculum.
I prayed before she came.
Lord, help me to sound positive.
The truth is, I have enjoyed homeschooling, and it has been the hardest thing I have done in my life thus far...and let me tell you, I have done some hard things.
My students are amazing. They desire to learn. They are willing. They don't complain (too often). They don't have special learning issues that I have to work around or behavioral problems to deal with...For all intents and purposes, when it comes to homeschooling, I've got it easy.
The problem is the teacher.
She wasn't prepared.
I wasn't prepared to handle all the spiritual and emotional lessons that God would dole out this year.
I wasn't aware that in the process of educating my children, the student would be me.
So when I sat down at my kitchen table with this mom, I wanted to be positive. Keep it simple, I kept telling myself.
But my self wouldn't listen.
I wanted to tell her all the good things. I wanted to be sweetness and light. I didn't want the deep-thinking, deep processing, wordy Kellie, to come out.
I wanted all these things because homeschooling is amazing. It is exactly what my kids need in this time in their lives. It is a ministry. At times a joy, at times a burden.
Its a lot of work.
Work that I daily have to pray about. Homeschooling is a work that is refining me. Pruning me. Growing me up, in my heart and my soul.
It isn't easy, but I'm eternally grateful.
We'll do it again next year, because I know it is right where we need to be.
Still, I wanted to grab her hands, look her straight in her (very beautiful!) eyes, and tell her that she was sitting at the wrong table. I wanted to encourage her to talk to someone who actually knows what she is doing. To seek advice from a homeschooling mom who has got this thing all figured out, and does it gracefully.
Although, in truth, I'm not sure that mom exists.
I am praying that I didn't discourage the sweet gal who sat in my kitchen. I wanted to sound positive, because I am positive homeschooling is an amazing way to educate your family.
So positive that we may be in this for the long haul, but personally, this has been a tough year.
Sometimes I wish I was good at sugar coating, but it just isn't me.
I'm in the process of writing all the things I have learned this year (through homeschooling) and hope to post my thoughts from time to time.
Speaking of posts....on Friday I will be posting my first installment of CoffeeGal: Calling Back
You can click the link above if you don't remember what that is. I am hoping to post every other Friday...I just don't think I can do once a week, I am about to start a busy season of travel! Yay!
All right, this post looks nothing like I thought it would, and its ended rather abruptly. However, I have had a second cup of coffee and I am ready to start my day! Hopefully there will be apron pictures soon!