Thursday, December 02, 2010

In the Nest

I'm feeling pensive today.

This always happens 
when I expose my heart,
as I did last night-- 
Awkwardly sharing
the deeper places 
that only the Lord
 and I 
can see. 

Honestly, 
I didn't share much, 

but a swatch cut from the tapestry of life 
still sometimes stings... 

Though differently than it did before. 

Its hard, 
choosing vulnerability.

Hard to share the deeper things of life 
that have shaped me, 
held me, 
transformed me 
into who I am today. 

Still...
 I'm tempted 
to create a different image,
than the one 
cut for me.

Though I am unable to do it.

Time has taught me,
to share 
(when the time is right)
 the good
as well as the bad.

I doubt I will ever
do it gracefully...
but the privilege of

Remembering,
Reminding,
Representing,

all things,
those we can see and understand,
and those we can't, 
can be..

Life is messy. 
Even ugly, 
sometimes I still want to run -- 
runaway 
from places and names, 
times and troubles. 

Run, 
from myself.

But Truth tells me,
I'm never alone.

(Neither are you.)

I am,

and was,

and always will be,

thankfully,

blessedly,

amazingly,

tucked in,

under-wing, 

of the 

Almighty.

~~~

He will cover you with His feathers,
and under His wing you will find refuge,
His faithfulness will be your shield.
Psalm 91:4

6 comments:

Gretchen said...

I love you. Thank you for that Psalm, and for sharing who you are with me. xxxooo

Kim said...

Awww...Kellie...I don't know what you are writing about but I sense the personalness of it and I sense the beauty that may have come from the ashes of an imperfect life (belive me....been there, done that) and that my friend is real and to me nothing is more beautiful then being real. God's hand on your life is evident and I am glad to call you a friend. Love you.

Anonymous said...

I love the picture of being under His wing...such security!! Love you, Marie

Rebecca said...

Beautiful.

mer@lifeat7000feet said...

This made me cry...tears of sympathy and of tears of gratitude for what God alone can redeem.

Carpool Queen said...

I love to see how He redeems the desert parts of our life.