Wednesday, December 17, 2008
I'm happy to report that the Annual Ladies Christmas party went off without a hitch last night. The weather was cold and wet, but that wasn't going to bring us down! We know how to celebrate!
However, this morning, after two days of cleaning and preparing, (and yesterday feeling a bit high strung with nerves over speaking) I find that I am a bit on the tired side, and I have a serious case of indecision.
If there is one thing that will drive me the shortest distance to Crazy, it's when I wake up feeling indecisive.
It only takes one early morning, indecisive, decision to turn the whole day into a day of what I could do, or what I should do, or what I ought to do.
For me, being indecisive breeds indecision.
This morning it started by pushing the snooze alarm, but not being decisive about sleeping in.
So I laid in bed, thinking about how I should get up, but then I didn't.
Sleeping in wasn't at all restful, since sleep never came back, and instead indecision took its stay. Now my morning routine was 30 minutes "off schedule". This is when I should have made the decision to skip the work out and head down stairs for a cup of coffee and some quiet time. But I didn't.
With my mind only half awake, and a tired body screaming out for the warmth of the bed, I put on running clothes and groggily walked down the stairs to the coffee pot.
While drinking coffee, and trying to figure out how I was going to make up the lost time, I told myself the work-out would happen...later. Sometime, in the indecisive, nebulous, later.
Luckily the schoolwork decisions have already been made. So I get kids get busy with breakfast and school (this week is review and a lot of reading- so minimal teaching on my part). I keep wandering from room to room; more coffee in hand. I should do laundry; I could clean up from the party; I ought to get on the treadmill; I might bake cookies...
It's drizzly and dark outside and so far, still chilly. Now it's noon and I have flittered the morning away with indecision. Thinking of everything, and doing almost nothing.
So you know what I am going to do?
I'm going to decide.
I will make us some veggie soup for lunch. Then I will skip today's work out and go straight to the shower. I will pull chicken out of the freezer for dinner. Then I will ask the kids to help me fold some laundry while we watch a Christmas movie.
There. I feel better already.