Wednesday, December 17, 2008

A Decisive Decision

I'm happy to report that the Annual Ladies Christmas party went off without a hitch last night. The weather was cold and wet, but that wasn't going to bring us down! We know how to celebrate!

However, this morning, after two days of cleaning and preparing, (and yesterday feeling a bit high strung with nerves over speaking) I find that I am a bit on the tired side, and I have a serious case of indecision.

If there is one thing that will drive me the shortest distance to Crazy, it's when I wake up feeling indecisive.

It only takes one early morning, indecisive, decision to turn the whole day into a day of what I could do, or what I should do, or what I ought to do.

For me, being indecisive breeds indecision. 

This morning it started by pushing the snooze alarm, but not being decisive about sleeping in. 

So I laid in bed, thinking about how I should get up, but then I didn't.

Big mistake.

Sleeping in wasn't at all restful, since sleep never came back, and instead indecision took its stay. Now my morning routine was 30 minutes "off schedule". This is when I should have made the decision to skip the work out and head down stairs for a cup of coffee and some quiet time. But I didn't. 

With my mind only half awake, and a tired body screaming out for the warmth of the bed, I put on running clothes and groggily walked down the stairs to the coffee pot. 

While drinking coffee, and trying to figure out how I was going to make up the lost time, I told myself the work-out would happen...later.  Sometime, in the indecisive, nebulous, later.

Luckily the schoolwork decisions have already been made. So I get kids get busy with breakfast and school (this week is review and a lot of reading- so minimal teaching on my part). I keep wandering from room to room; more coffee in hand. I should do laundry; I could clean up from the party; I ought to get on the treadmill; I might bake cookies...

It's drizzly and dark outside and so far, still chilly. Now it's noon and I have flittered the morning away with indecision. Thinking of everything, and doing almost nothing.

So you know what I am going to do?

I'm going to decide.

Decisively. 

I will make us some veggie soup for lunch. Then I will skip today's work out and go straight to the shower.  I will pull chicken out of the freezer for dinner. Then I will ask the kids to help me fold some laundry while we watch a Christmas movie.

There. I feel better already.

6 comments:

Anonymous said...

We're peas in a pod - you and me. I'm so bad about indecision. It really does throw off the whole day. I like how you pulled it all together at the end there. Enjoy that Christmas movie. The treadmill can totally wait.

Moriah @ Please Pass the Salt said...

This is about how my morning went, too, except I was also putting out toddler fires. Which makes me that much more irritable. And then Adelaide smashed her forehead on the handle on the side of the coffee table. Always something.

Tiffani said...

amen amen amen amen amen amen amen!!!!! and AMEN!!

Seriously, I could've written this myself (minus hosting a party the night before and the treadmill)...I get SOOOOO frustrated with myself!!

Shew, at least I'm not alone--raise your coffee mug, sister, here's to being DECISIVE. well, but I wonder if we should wait until tomorrow for that...would it be more efficient for us, or we could.... :) :)

Michele said...

Yep! A very indecisive girl I am too. Yet, being a working mom and homeschooling mom demands me to be decisive in those areas! If I sleep it, it makes it way worse on me. I have found it is just best to go ahead and get up. In fact so I would not be tempted to hit snooze my alarm clock is now in my bathroom! That way I am up and at 'em!

What fun decisions you did make -veggie soup sounds yummy, a Christmas movie while folding laundry even better! It feels good to be decisive!

Oh, about the treadmill . . . if I don't run in the morning it DOES not get done. There is just something about the afternoon that will not allow my legs to run.

Beth said...

As I read your post, I was saying to myself, "Yep, I hear ya on that. . ." I am right there with you. I don't know how often I have found myself in Indecision Land. It's not fun. And, I've found that if I don't get up before Carly and Hannah---and shower and get ready for the day--then my day is constantly behind and I am in a crabby mood. :-( Not fun for me, definitely not fun for the girls.

Your last paragraph was so encouraging, I was inspired to make some decisions, too! I was cheering for you and celebrating your decisiveness. :-)

Tanya said...

I have days like this. Many days like this. They tend to always come on rainy, foggy days when Ellie doesn't have school. When she starts going everyday, wow, I can only imagine how productive I'll be. ;)